Ein Wünschen

Sometimes, I wish I were straight. The majority of my life has been wishing that, so it is hard to get away from the thought. Anyway, I broke up with my bf Saturday morning at 3:30am while he was gone in Milwaukee, most likely hooking up. At least thats what the craigslist replies in his email's inbox would suggest. He did not find out about it till he arrived home sunday night/monday morning around 11pm or 12am. Aren't I lucky? So he wants me to try and stay with him. I love him, but I am not in love with him, nor can I trust him, whether I was in love with him or not. He wants to go to "marriage" counsoling with him. Soooo that way even if we do not get back together we can maybe have everything out on the table and have a good friendship...I think that friendship thing is going to take a while. First we need to get over the things that are going on and then tear down what we have/had for one another so we can rebuild in a different light. Then there is the eventual boyfriend...the guy I will be going out with. Eh lets go into that a different time.